An Army of SRA Ministers Soon to Awaken
It is extremely difficult for people who have been satanically ritually abused to find persons who can minister to them effectively, but God wants us to know this dilemma may soon be eradicated. He is preparing a vast army of persons to minister to these people, an army that is presently sleeping. However, He is about to gently call to them, and they will awaken to find themselves successfully ministering to the most abused persons on the face of the earth—the satanically ritually abused.
This army is the Church. People abused in satanic cults have emotional problems that often cause them to seek help from mental health professionals. They frequently have labels placed on them such as schizophrenia, bipolar, borderline, psychotic, paranoid, etc. When we in the church hear these psychological terms, we automatically think we could never help such persons. However, this is far from the truth. The truth is the only person who can really set these persons free is Jesus, and we in the church have Jesus. He lives inside of us and is longing to be released to supernaturally minister to the abused. We must learn how to release him so He can do this.
We have kept Jesus restrained behind our walls of wrong beliefs. We live in a society that believes education and science hold the answers to our deepest problems, and we have agreed with them. Shame on us! I was the same way. When I was told I would minister to people who are the worst of the worst, psychologically speaking, I was flabbergasted. I didn’t understand mental illness and I had no idea what to do. But the call persisted and soon God brought to me for help a severely abused woman suffering from DID, cult programming and multitudinous demons. All I knew to do was to learn a little about SRA and then delve in and try. I was amazingly successful, and I believe I was successful because I didn’t know what to do, but I had a relationship with Jesus. Out of that relationship, I learned to let Him lead. I wanted supernatural communication from the Lord—like visions, an audible voice, predetermined instructions, etc. But I received none of these. I had to just do whatever came into my mind—and wonder of wonders, it worked! My first abused woman had been labeled with many scary-sounding mental illnesses. She had been through several electric shock treatments. I knew I was in over my head—but that was a good thing. When I didn’t know what to do, Jesus did.
We in the church need to learn that ministry, first and foremost, flows out of a relationship with Jesus rather than education and techniques. The best preparation I can have to minister to severely abused persons is lots of time in the presence of the Lord, daily taking up my cross and allowing God to transform me into His image. Relationship is the key—relationship with Jesus and relationship with the abused person. This is far different than making an appointment with the professional to be seen once a week. This is not to denigrate the professionals who have totally given of themselves to help the abused—they have helped them and my hat goes off to them. I’m trying to awaken the Church to the fact that far more persons are needed and that we are equipped to minister. The most important prerequisite is that we be called to this ministry, and many are called who just don’t know it yet!
God is calling us into His kingdom where things are done differently than the world does them. To say we don’t need credentials and college degrees to minister to severely emotionally disturbed persons seems unbelievable, but think for a moment about Jesus. He had none of the world’s credentials. He was a lowly carpenter. What He did have was a relationship with Father God, a relationship that enabled Him to say, “I only do what I see the Father do. I only say what I hear the Father say.” He was totally dependent on His heavenly Father. We are to follow in His footsteps and become totally dependent on Jesus. This is a process and our ability to do this grows as we mature in Him.
Our belief in the need for special education has caused this vast army of ministers to be completely overlooked. Whenever I talk to someone who is a friend of an SRA person, they usually want me to recommend some professional therapist for their friend. My response is often, “Why don’t you minister to her. You are the one who has already gained her trust. You have the Holy Spirit. All you need is the call of God, a basic understanding of the principles behind SRA, a relationship with Jesus, and the willingness to spend time helping her.”
Similarly, the first thing a person who feels called to SRA ministry says is, Where can I go to be educated in this so I can effectively minister. They often spend hundreds of dollars to take college courses, attend seminars, buy books and workbooks and learn techniques. There is a better way and it doesn’t cost any money. Spend time with Jesus, pour your life out to Him and say, “Here am I, Lord. Send me.”
Several years ago, after I had been ministering for satanic ritual abuse for about five years, I met a new friend who had attended many Christian seminars, had completed some college counseling courses and had lots of knowledge. She showed me her notebook filled with instructions on how to minister. As I glanced through her notebook I thought, “On my! I don’t know any of this stuff. Maybe I need to change the way I’m doing things.” My friend suggested I take a few pages from her notebook and incorporate them in my ministry.
I tried this. I was ministering to an incredibly wounded lady who was absolutely shattered in her identity and we had been making remarkable progress. At our next session I said something like, Today we are going to do such and such. We tried it for awhile and she finally said, Can we please go back to doing things the way we were before? I readily agreed, and we got back on track. I was greatly relieved and so was she. What I had done was take control out of the hands of the Holy Spirit as I determined what we would do on that day.
It is part of our nature to want to be in control. It is scary to enter into a ministry situation not knowing what to do. We have thoughts like, What if I fail? What will this person think of me? What if I don’t really hear from God? etc.
I’d like to give an illustration of a very successful ministry time that occurred several years ago where nothing worthwhile would have happened if I had tried to determine what to do. The fact is, I had no idea what to do. A certain lady had a problem in that her emotions were locked up and she was unable to release them. She had unconsciously stored all of her anger and rage (SRA persons are filled with rage) someplace deep inside, and it was just stuck there. She could feel it and knew it needed to come up but was powerless to do anything about it. I couldn’t do anything either.
She was sitting there with a big pillow on her lap in case the anger came up and she needed to pound on something. We prayed and nothing happened, so we prayed some more and still nothing happened. We were sitting there and I had the thought, Sing “Break Forth into Joy.” I thought, No, that’s just me. The thought came again and I thought, That would be totally inappropriate. The thought persisted so I figured it must be the Lord. I opened my mouth and sang loudly, “Break forth into joy O my soul. Break forth into Joy O my soul, etc.” All of a sudden this lady jumped out of her chair and started yelling and cursing. She took the pillow and began pounding it with all her might, even kicking it. Then she was on her knees on the floor pounding the pillow. The foulest language I ever heard in my life was pouring out of her mouth as she yelled and screamed at her abusers until she was out of breath. Slowly she returned to herself and we could talk about what had just transpired. My obedience to sing loudly made her angry and that triggered the anger locked up within from abuse that occurred many years ago.
She had been afraid to express this anger and the foul language she knew would come out because she feared rejection from my husband and me (her pastors). This fear was fueled by things said to her by ministers from her past such as, “That kind of language is not acceptable. We don’t talk like that around here.”
My husband had heard the tirade and even peeked in my office door to make sure I was all right during the episode. As we walked out of my office, he gave her a hug and exclaimed, “Wow! You had a wonderful session in there.” She was totally released from her fear of our rejection. We know there is more rage buried down deep in her soul and when the time is right, more will be released. It will be much easier next time because of what had just happened. If I had not been obedient to do something that seemed very foolish, it probably wouldn’t have happened.
What I did was risky. What if I sang like that and nothing happened? I would look like a fool. We have to be willing to appear foolish if we are to follow the Lord’s leading. I wish I could hear His audible voice (like some of my abused friends can), but all I get is a thought. What we need to understand is that the more we are conformed to His image in our daily walk with Him, the more our thoughts become His thoughts. Or perhaps I should say, His thoughts become our thoughts. Either way, we are in process of becoming one with Jesus to the point that we think as He does.
I would like to end with a quote by Henri Nouwen from his book, In